napowrimo- 30-april 2020- from a point of view of someone who hates me

Shall we begin for finally I get an opportunity
To blurt out on a spree
How do those eyes behind those spectacles
Have that spark that always tries to resonate itself with life
Bungee jumping at every opportunity
Now sits pale and silent averse to any light
Thank goodness it has slumbered down
Otherwise it seemed really unbearable
To see your enthusiastic self buzzing around everywhere
Like a ray of hope to people who felt low
And even us who couldn’t but had to acknowledge you
Weren’t you a nerdy crazy bundle then
who didn’t shy from playing pranks on random people
and yet sneaking away like a puppy
How well you mimicked almost everyone , including seniors and bosses
Who somehow just enjoyed your damn company and laughed away
Really surprised that you could forge a relation
Even with strangers and make them feel at ease
Those affirmative statements you made among friends,
greeting people like me who spited off your back
For which you were supremely contented as a good deed
Did it bring anything back to you, of course not
Because you didn’t expect anything in return, be it career or relations
But you left to carry baggages of our bullying and taunts
The cost of sane living crushing some of your dreams
I wished strangely, I could dupe you better
Well, well even if you shun away,
You are my laughing stock now
For your absurd decisions that you hardly learn from your mistakes
Crude enough I say, your weak heart has been duped
To believe everything is good
And probably, that’s why you fracture your soul
With more bandages to count than before

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napowrimo- 17- april 2020- forgiveness

Forgive me for being your shadow
That ticked away in daylight
Forgive me for Instilling hope
That was fairly good only in familiar places
Forgive me for driving slogans
Which was abandoned after a long day
Forgive me for cheering you in a crowd
And leaving you lonely at times of need
Forgive me for encouraging you to click pictures
At present turning them into a clickbait
Forgive me for promising you positivity
Knowing many things are yet to change
Forgive me for sowing the seed of love in you
When I know that atmosphere around is hate
Forgive me for leading you to be independent
Where we ourselves are reclusive in our deeds
Forgive me dear gifted beings
For drawing a unknown dream
Forgive me for writing verses that just a part of a stream
Forgive me for my feeble knowledge about you
Forgive me for lending my shoulder which droops to reality in shame
Forgive me, please hopefully forgive me
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Transportation

Transport me to the times/place where I shall be myself
coz I am no more that old one
that skin has been marinated for long and it was time that it needed to be fried and tested
Tested to shoulder the worst and taste the bitter pills for a sweet  tooth like me
Transport me to a environment where I shall be myself unlike the outward happiness that I potray to stay clear from the hovering sadness
Transport me to a life where I shall be myself coz this life is a mixture of lots of may’s and will and shall but room for is, the start is vacant.

Bizarre nights

The night has turned bizarre
With the clouded discoloured thoughts
That has knocked off the sleep away
Those hurtful moments surface
To the ceilings of my mind
Which refrain from going away
looming closer as the lights go off
As the bare eyes search for unresolved solace
and The silent tears lean on the pillow